My little girl

It has been a very long time since I have had any space and / or desire to write in this space. I have kept a journal going over the past year, filled with wonderful stories and moments of motherhood. My little girl was born last Dec on the 14, we are so blessed she is amazing, beautiful, spirited, gentle, energetic and in tune with everything around her. I am loving this new chapter in my life.

I love the lessons she has taught me, I love the way she is so simply and deep all rolled into one. I love how truly present she is with each and every single moment.

She sure is a old soul with a interesting, meaningful life ahead of her and I can't wait to watch it unravel.....

Ideas anyone??

I thought that I always wanted to have some time to myself to do nothing, and simply be still. Well maybe that isn't right for me??

Since not working and waiting for my little one I think now I'm bored. I can't believe I'm even writing that!! I really thought that our baby would be born by now, so to still be waiting feels a little strange.

I know I am very lucky to have this time, but I'm not sure what to do with it, because it is so hot in Brisbane at the moment it is zapping my energy. Maybe I will start to cook some more??

Ideas anyone??

Upside down

It's interesting how in one phone call your whole world can change...

My new manager rang me today and told me she can't do it, 3 weeks before Christmas our busiest time.

For a moment I was taken back then I felt anger then I took a deep breathe and thought. Everything is exactly as it's meant to be, everything always works out and I will know the bigger reason behind all of this in a few months. I surprised myself, being pregnant and slightly hormonal I thought this could be easy to fall apart. But no I have the other girls at the salon who need my strength at the moment and my little one inside me who needs a mamma who is calm, centered, strong, real and able to cope. So this is me coping and knowing it has all happened for a reason. And I guess it keeps my busy mind off the waiting......

Exhale.....

Waiting....

Still waiting, over the past weekend my 2 sisters and mother flew into Brisvegas to help me celebrate! It was so lovely to hang out with them, talking about our new little arrival to be, eating yummy food and having lots of laughs.

It also kept my mind off the waiting.

Since I've stepped out of my business I'm seeing the whole salon in a different light. I'm seeing it from a business point of view not so much a personal one. When I was in there on a day to day basis I was so connected to the girls and clients and now that I have a bit of space I'm seeing it through fresh eyes, which is a good thing for me.

Nearly time...........

I feel ready now, I can't wait............

The birthing necklace.

Getting ready...

I had my baby shower a few weeks ago, and I asked everyone to bring a bead and to infuse it with prayer, blessings and love for our babys birth journey.

Here it is the energy of it is amazing. I feel so lucky to be surrounded by such strong, powerful and loving women. I love that everyone really gave some thought into the beads and I know that they will help me on my own journey from maiden into motherhood.

I am also making a little pouch to carry with me, I am going to put in there crystals, sage, ganesha, and other little bits and pieces that will help me move through this time.

I would love it if anyone out there has any ideas, of what to put in a birthing pouch that will help?

8 weeks to go....

Time seems to be moving so quickly at the moment. I only have 8 weeks until I meet my little one, unless there are other plans and she/he decides to come early??

I feel my body starting to slow down and my awareness starting to move within, getting quiet become still, getting ready for birth.

I have had my family with me for the past 2 weeks and it has been so wonderful, I could simply be myself, I relaxed, I felt happy and whole. I always love being with them and they helped me get my little baby's room ready. We washed and dried and folded lots of little baby's clothes, so sweet. I feel ready now my house is ready for a new little family member....

My first baby

I am just about to hand over my first baby to someone new...

My salon is now 8 years old so I feel that it is time for someone new to come in and manage the place whilst I am having my little one. I have mixed feelings about the whole thing!

I have to find someone new, and that in it's self is a little daunting, I have 4 beautiful girls who work for me but none of them are quite the right fit to run the shop while I step away.

I have interviewed a few but none of them felt right, but Wed this week I am meeting a girl who just feels right, well I thought that about the other 2 that didn't show. But this time it feels different. I am a positive person who sees the good in all which can be a good thing and a bad thing depending on what I am making the decision for.

I really want to be able to completely step away from the salon, and birth my child and have at least 4 months to welcome my little one into the world, then go back 2 days and just have fun there. Not manage it! I am putting it out there to the universe so I know that whatever happens will be of the highest good for all!! Wish me luck.

And someone wrote a comment about the new pink back ground and it being a hint... well maybe it is and maybe not?? We will see xx

Today

As I stand behind the chair cutting hair all day I feel you kick, and I long for the time when I can simply sit down and be still with you.

I can listen to what you are trying to tell me, my full focus can be on you growing inside of me.

I can't wait and hopefully the time will be soon.........

photos..............

My baby bump

I am 6 and 1/2 months pregnant now and so many thoughts flow through my head every single day..

These are some of them that I think of....

To my baby

I carry you with me everywhere in my world, I wonder what you truly think?
You eat with me you sleep with me, you cut hair with me, and play with me I wonder how you feel?

Do I need to do more?

Do I need to do less?

Am I truly being authentic to myself and to you? Am I living authentically, living in my truth and am I teaching you to do the same?

I know that I love having you with me as my little bundle that I carry throughout my day, so neat and compact, we have secret conversations that know one else will ever know about.

You are so alive in my belly, so fresh and unblemished by the tides of life, so unaware of the big world outside my womb.

Wow it is so amazing, I can't wait to meet you xx

Why I blog?

I have been sitting here reading other peoples blogs. Getting swept up in their worlds, not knowing these people in my day to day life most of them live in America, but I love them. I mean their blogs.

I find so much joy reading about their day to day going ons, and now that I know I am with child. (an old fashion way of saying I have a baby in my belly) I love reading about how they cope and what they do with their children. I find a lot of inspiration in their words!

Why do I blog?????

I guess to write I love to write and share stories and share photos, by nature I am a really open person happy to talk about anything that is going on with me so I guess blogging is just another extension of that.

I am having a baby!!!! I had a dream it was a boy, so did my sister I am 11 weeks at the moment so as soon as we can we will find out if we are having a little mermaid or merman.

It it such a surreal feeling, I am not sure even now if it is true. We had a scan last week and our little baby looked like she was waving her hand and she was wiggling her feet so cute! Heart melting. I am calling her she until we find out I am so surrounded by girls in the salon and I am one of three girls, I guess that terms just comes naturally for me.

I took some beautiful photos of Sooty which I will share here for you, my sweet first little girl!

Today

Today is a big day for me,

I am filled with excitement, anticipation, joy, intrigue and wonderment.

Today I find out if it's all real.

Today I find out if our little family of two, will grow into three.

Today will be the start of a whole new journey for me, one that is so meaningful and I wonder if I can do it? I know deep down I can, of course I can but I guess its just the unknown. The uncharted waters.

Today after the scan a new reality will unfold in our lives, it is all quite magical......